friend #1: Oh boy. Something where you interact with people or kids. You're such an inspirational person that I feel like you need to be out there doing something where people get to see that.
sister: Oh wow big question...let me think a bit...
5 minutes later just sent you a worksheet to do.
friend #2: I think you need to do something that involves being around people! You have a fun personality :) I found a letter you had written me last year and you were thinking about opening a community art center or something. Do you ever still think about that?
mom: Well... Something that uses your creating talents whether that is in the arts or design fields... Also you like to help people although they frustrate you sometimes... Lots of possibilities..."
brother: graphic design.
me: so original and thoughtful :)
brother: Thanks. It's what I'm known for but no really I think you would do really well and enjoy being a graphic designer it would just require schooling.
friend #3: Something creative, something that is dynamic and non-repetitive, something that benefits others in a positive tangible way... I'll keep brainstorming...
dad: 1. Work with some one who makes the decisions, 2. You do the creative part, 3. That person who makes the decisions is an affirmer, 4. You work to help people not with them. (Affirmer meaning they are often, if not every day, saying things like... "That's good, do more of that." or "This is good but can we change this." Involved but not doing. You tend to wonder often if you are doing well enough or the right stuff.. so, they help you grow in a positive way.)
friend #4: ART! DESIGN! you're crafty. you could be a graphic artist or design coffee shops or bistros.
boyfriend: working at an art studio where you help underprivileged people find their artistic outlet. Or a graphic designer for an organization that you are passionate about ..that would allow you to travel :)
friend #5: I would choose...honestly? Interior Designer or some kind of designer position for a retail (or other heavily-emphasized image type) business. I think you would be a fabulous art teacher as well, but I don't know if you want to teach. What does your gut tell you when you think of answering that question for yourself?
I'm noticing a theme. Are you? It's actually blatantly clear that I should be doing something creative, inspirational and with people.. But how do I get there? Really, how do you end up in that sort of position? And, while I love and adore all of the abovementioned members of my friends and family, I have to wonder if they chose those types of jobs for me because they think I would do well at it or because they know it's what I want to hear.. what I want to be. And, if so, is that so wrong? Isn't that the point? To find what you want, what you love, and to work at making it become your reality?
I hope so. For me, I think it's been a fine line that I don't know how to balance.. I go back and forth between feeling like I have to be responsible and patient and grateful and content, to having an overwhelming desire to take the necessary risks to do something I could potentially love AND excel in.. but with no guarantees of anything.
I feel so lucky to have a job that I enjoy, coworkers who make me laugh and encourage and support me, quite a bit of flexibility and a steady paycheck. To chase after something "more", something that may or may not work out, something that could make me have to miss loan payments or not make rent.. that's scary. But to wait for the perfect timing means waiting forever.. that much I do know..
I guess that is what this whole season of my life is about. I'm deciding that is what it is going to be about ;) I'm going to start exploring those things I love as hobbies and see what sticks, see if I can figure out the differences between what I think I love and what I actually love, and narrow down the field as I go.
If I want to see changes, if I want to end up in a creative position, then I suppose I need to start creating and go from there...
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