something new

I need a new start. A new project. A new something to put focus and energy into.

I start and stop blogs like it's my job.

So I'm offering no guarantees because I really crave change and love new beginnings. But I want to create something.. and I have to stop "beginning" and start "investing" at some point in my life ;) right?

The blog was originally titled These Wings because I feel like I've been earning my wings and learning to fly over the past few years.. and now it's time to spread them wide and start trusting myself (but really truly). Also, I may have a special affinity for owls and all birds and wings and flight.

But seriously. I want to stop daydreaming and start developing real goals, start to experiment with all of the avenues I love so much and narrow down the field. I want to find whatever it is that I love to do and make it happen. This is an attempt to start focusing in on what that might be..

In a general sense, I know what I want.. I think :) In August of 2009, I took out a little notebook and wrote down "WHAT DO I WANT?" at the top of the page. My thoughts, dreams, desires.. they haven't changed much since.

I want:
to travel
to live in another country
to create
freedom to be creative
encouragement & support
to work with people who inspire me
to be financially secure/independent
love: marriage & family
to dance, to sing, to play
friends &a social network
to enjoy lots of entertainment
an urban lifestyle
new experiences
to pay off all of my debt

So that is what I'm working towards. But, as it turns out, I also want to really love what I do. Whatever it is that fills a percentage of my time? I want to LOVE it. I want to find joy and excitement in my daily activities. I want my work to reflect what I love and I want to stop putting it all off for a time that is more "convenient"...

So here is my new challenge to myself:
I'm going to start exploring everything that I think I could possibly maybe love to do.. make jewelry and accessories and beauty products and even shoes? just make THINGS, plan events, draw and paint and stretch myself artistically (prints, paintings, stationery, etc.), WRITE & blog (welcome to the madness), review places and spaces and things, travel and document it, take graphic design classes maybe? photoshop and illustrator?.. attend art workshops or online classes.. and on and on.

It's a big list.

I want to try them all. And see how it goes. I'll write about it.. and see what sticks.
Something has to come out of all of it, don't you think?







"She turned her can'ts into cans and her dreams into plans."
Kobi Yamada